Oceans Rise

Sitting at night staring at the ceiling

Wondering my next steps

Wondering my next destination

I trusted and gave my heart away

It was returned tattered and torn

I stitch it together in tears that keep falling on the flesh

I can only hope that it beats stronger when it heals

I’m so tired. Exhaustion sets in. I stare around at blank walls and new empty spaces

That I find myself in

I take deep breaths in but the walls of my empty chest ache

I try to climb up out of the hole I’m in, my arms and legs are broken in places that

Can’t be seen.

Still I pull up. Still I can see above the ledge. Still I stagger away.

All the time moving. All the time lifting one foot and then the other.

All the time keeping my eyes locked forward, afraid to look back, afraid to be a pillar of salt

There on the floor.

Tears fall to oceans all while I’m building the raft from broken promises and dreams.

I lay up and look at the stars as I drift there out to sea.

The sun rises and sets. The sky streaks purple and gold. The breeze has the faint aroma of rain soon to come.

They said I could be anything. This means I can be without you. This means I can move on. This means someday the waters will subside and I will be able to walk away, and rise again.